Admittance

I did it again. I fell so hard and forgot to look.

I believed in you. I believed in us.

I don't know why I keep giving you the benefit of the doubt.

I don't want to admit this to anyone, let alone you.

You let me down.

I let you, let me down.

Every time were over I tell myself never again.

I promise I will stay away next time.

I look myself in the mirror and say I'm better off.

I keep going back to you.

I don't want to admit this to anyone, let alone you.

You let me down.

I let you, let me down.

Everyone tells me not to, 

but I do what I want to do 

- no matter what the consequence.

I don't want to admit this to anyone, let alone you.

You let me down.

I let you, let me down.

Maybe were done for good now. 

I've finally gotten you out of my system.

Please just stay away.

I can't take what you do to me 

and losing you again will destroy what's left.

I don't want to admit this to anyone, let alone you.

You let me down.

I let you, let me down.

Ok baby let's watch Breakfast at Tiffany's and forget our troubles...

Today was simply lovely. Have a good weekend my sweets!

Blistery Thursday

Quick Recap:

Today was really good! 

I had class this morning:

I'm not sure why, but I'm kinda in love with my Blue Planet class. I don't know if it's the teacher, subject, atmosphere, or the fact that it's Ashley's subject. I feel closer to her there.

Quiet boy and I survived another day of english. He makes me smile. We talk from the second he gets there and we talk about class after we leave. I'm really trying to figure out if it's more than just friends banter going on here... Not another one?! I love our inside jokes!

Lunch:

Met Wifey for sushi! It was so yummy! I love my best friend! She's so amazing! 

Afternoon:

Work was okay... it was well, work.  

Tonight - 

The cowboy is hilarious. 

Overall today was just... swell. Hope your day was too!

Dollhouse

Dollhouse, Priscilla Renea

I’m just a girl, you’re just a boy
This is my heart, it’s not a toy
So what’s with you playing with my mind
We used to be cool, this used to be love
Now it’s become, something like a job
Like it or not, maybe things were changing right before our eyes

I tried to be a picture perfect girl
But you were in your own fantasy world
Tryna control me like some kind of Barbie
but that just ain’t me

Cause I ain’t a doll, this aint a dollhouse
You’re way too old to be, puttin me down like this
and playing around like this
I ain’t a doll, this ain’t a dollhouse
No, I could never be, stuck living life like this
behind these four walls,cause I ain’t a doll

You call the shots, right down to my shoes
I liked what you liked cause you told me to
And i don’t think that you could even tell
I fell out of love, but it never showed
I gave up on us so long ago
But you’ll never know
baby don’t pretend like you know me so well

I tried to be a picture perfect girl
but you were in your own fantasy world
try to control me like some kind of Barbie
but that just ain’t me

I ain’t a doll, this ain't a dollhouse
You’re way too old to be, puttin me down like this
and playing around like this
I ain’t a doll, this ain’t a dollhouse
No, I could never be, stuck living life like this
behind these four walls,cause I ain’t a doll

I’ll never be made of plastic
So glad that my heart’s elastic
No matter what you do
I’ll bounce back offa you
Cut me but I’m not bleeding

I tried to be a picture perfect girl
but you were in your own fantasy world
tryna to control me like some kind of Barbie
but that just ain’t me

I ain’t a doll, this ain't a dollhouse
You’re way too old to be, puttin me down like this
and playing around like this
I ain’t a doll, this ain’t a dollhouse
No I could never be, stuck living life like this
Behind these four walls, I ain’t a doll

And I come with imperfections
Epitome of perfection
if you can’t understand, loving the way I am
then you’re no good for me, so glad i kept my receipt 

Warning!

Warning! Do not smoke! He will think you give better head! Seriously? WTF?!
I can't imagine what the french advertisers were thinking when they thought that this would be a good idea against smoking? It's just plain dumb.

"Smoking means being a slave to tobacco"

(Btw... they both look turned on not terrified.)

This is the statement they released: 

"We noticed that the traditional anti-smoking campaigns no longer got across amongst the youth. We thus had to use another way in order to raise awareness…We were surprised by the extent of the media buzz. But it's above all a message of public health that got across."

               - Bull shit. 


I want a cigarette now... this ad was just so satisfying.

Happy Ever After

It's time for my wedding obsession!

This song makes him think of me!

Hey there Delilah, Plain White T's


Hey there Delilah
What's it like in New York City?
I'm a thousand miles away
But girl, tonight you look so pretty
Yes you do
Times Square can't shine as bright as you
I swear it's true

Hey there Delilah
Don't you worry about the distance
I'm right there if you get lonely
Give this song another listen
Close your eyes
Listen to my voice, it's my disguise
I'm by your side

Oh it's what you do to me
Oh it's what you do to me
Oh it's what you do to me
Oh it's what you do to me
What you do to me

Hey there Delilah
I know times are getting hard
But just believe me, girl
Someday I'll pay the bills with this guitar
We'll have it good
We'll have the life we knew we would
My word is good

Hey there Delilah
I've got so much left to say
If every simple song I wrote to you
Would take your breath away
I'd write it all
Even more in love with me you'd fall
We'd have it all

Oh it's what you do to me
Oh it's what you do to me
Oh it's what you do to me
Oh it's what you do to me

A thousand miles seems pretty far
But they've got planes and trains and cars
I'd walk to you if I had no other way
Our friends would all make fun of us
and we'll just laugh along because we know
That none of them have felt this way
Delilah I can promise you
That by the time we get through
The world will never ever be the same
And you're to blame

Hey there Delilah
You be good and don't you miss me
Two more years and you'll be done with school
And I'll be making history like I do
You'll know it's all because of you
We can do whatever we want to
Hey there Delilah here's to you
This one's for you

Oh it's what you do to me
Oh it's what you do to me
Oh it's what you do to me
Oh it's what you do to me
What you do to me.

A little yummy

I'm so happy Jude Law & Sienna Miller are back together! They make me happy...






















Speaking of happy! Did you see James Franco's gorgeous brother David??? Omg...

Style Recap

I made a discovery yesterday morning!!! Wal-mart is good for more than bread and cream for my coffee (the two reasons why I went their to begin with...). Btw... yay for new straightner!

1. Maybelline Lash Stiletto Mascara (Lives up to it's name and is perhaps, better than my $50 masacra sitting in my makeup bag.)

2. Miley Cyrus/Max Azria accessory line

- Grey Two-Toned Scarf

- Chunky Studded Bracelets (Samantha Jones ring in picture NOT FROM WAL-MART OBVIOUSLY!!!)

3. Silver beaded/chain statement necklace (Even the guy at the checkout counter liked this one...?)

Btw... yay for new straightener! 

L.O.V.E.

Tonight was amazing. I don't even wanna talk about it. I want to keep it ours. 

I'm in love again. Maybe I never stopped.

Falling all over again lyrics

Were different than we were before... it's so much better. We've grown and gotten a little closer to who we are becoming in the end. We're comfortable, but still excited and it's like falling all over again.

We're discovering things we've never realized. So much calmer. Yet, on the brink of writing the next greatest symphony.

The little things are so much more important than all of the big things I expected. In their own way they were so much grander and dearer to my heart.

Were different than we were before... it's so much better. We've grown and gotten a little closer to who we are becoming in the end. We're comfortable, but still excited and it's like falling all over again.

You've made me realize to be in love you have to want more, you have to want the man behind the facade. The one that only you get to see. We are not afraid to be vulnerable anymore and it's a freeing feeling.

Were different than we were before... it's so much better. We've grown and gotten a little closer to who we are becoming in the end. We're comfortable, but still excited and it's like falling all over again.

My, oh my

I met with the woman from MADD (Mother's against drunk driving) this morning. I was so nervous about breaking down, but I didn't. I held strong, poised, and confident. 

She was really nice and super excited about my wanting to join the organization.

I didn't sleep again last night - the nightmares just won't stop. Every time I close my eyes I'm afraid something bad is going to happen again. I keep seeing the accident in my head, even though I wasn't there. I've seen it happen a million times. I'm not sure I will be able to get over this. However, if I can help just one person not drink and drive, maybe Ashley will have not died for nothing, but for me to wake up and find something I believe in.

Btw... one of Mr. Big's stalkers didn't know he broke off the engagement/relationship with the biggest mistake of his life, aka Snaggle Tooth. This makes me happy... she seems like quite the know it all and I'm sad to admit it, but made me nervous when we were together. I'm feeling a lot more confident knowing that I'm the one he confides in. 

In need of a stylist... or a mirror!!!

Explain to me why Kristen Stewart is even allowed to show up to premieres if she's just going to act bored, pretentious, and bitchy?!

Claire Danes needs a new stylist desperately. Not exactly a news flash.

                                                                                              And I'm just in love with the pink dress.....

Daily Dose of Fashion

More reasons why I should be at fashion week right now, instead of sitting on my bed - alone in my room (Mags is passed on, so technically I'm alone) avoiding doing my math homework. Yes, fashionistas still have math homework. It's pointless, devoid of anything useful in the fashion world, and a giant pain in my ass. So forget fractions and square roots - consume yourself in Rodarte, House of Hollow, and more... Enjoy my lovelies!!! 

Cheater, Cheater

"They say that a cheater is always a cheater..." Kellie Pickler

I'm sending my deepest apologies to Abbie Cornish, however, she was still a home-wrecking slut. Ryan 'le douche' Phillipe has done it again. Reports this morning say he cheated on the gorge Abbs. Bummer, right? 

So glad my idol Reese Witherspoon got out when she did and didn't put up with his lying, cheating, bullshit any longer than she knew about it. 

Why do men cheat? Why do women cheat? Why can't we just be brutally honest with each other and save the other party heartache?

If you love someone, set them free right? Well, in this case have the decency to be a man and step up one last time. Or possibly the first time, if your a cheater to begin with. Don't even get me started on that loser with the cat's name or the slimy politician waiting for his wife to die.

"Cheater, cheater, where'd you meet that no good white trash ho?" Joey & Rory

Glambert Love

I seriously wanna marry... or lick (whatever comes first) this man.
(Sorry about the over share!!!)

Bradshaw Syndrome

Carrie Bradshaw had major phone issues - so do I. I become attached to one and don't want to replace. I'm stubborn and when I get used to something I like it.
I have to face the facts that my little phone is dying. Moment of silence...

It's almost that time again...

I bought two new bathing suits today... wasn't expecting it - which made the process slightly less painful. I found two gorgeous halters!
One of mine is a cross between the two below... including being dangerously low. Live a little, right?!

Wedding Fetish Continued...

Shoe Porn & More...

I am beyond obsessed with shoes... this is not something new.





Also - super jealous that I'm missing fashion week!




I love bows. However, I'm not positive I can do a bow tie.

Little Gossip

What's the nations sudden obsession with Carey Mulligan? Yeah, she's cutish, but I'm not seeing what's so special.

One obsession I can get behind is Eric Dane & Bradley Cooper. As my favorite 'couple' in the movie, Valentine's Day, they get my vote!

I'm totally confused by the following coupling - Ryan Gosling & Michelle Williams. I was still not so secretly hoping that Ryan would get back together with Rachel McAdams. You really can't help whom you fall in love with...

Apparently I make him nervous...

Life is amazing...
1. Green toe nail polish

2. Purplish pink nails with bronze snake ring


3. Overall outfit today
(Jessica Simpson chocolate brown ballet flats, gold Guess by Marciano bag, 7even skinny jeans, grey long sleeve t-shirt, vintage charm necklace, Jessica Simpson black sunglasses, and style & co. green scarf.)





4. Apparently I make Mr. Big nervous...
Yes, we're still talking. Yes, it's still amazing. Yes, were taking things slow.